Recovery=Discovery
I thought maybe after talking through my mind, I don't have to blog this feeling but I guess... ever since I'm so use to blogging in here... I feel much more better after writing it out or else they keep HAUNTING me. wahahhaha Now I know why blogging is addictive...
1st discovery:
FEAR: that which causes a feeling of being afraid; that of which a person is afraid
That is what I feel like blogging... everyone fear for something but if the things is normal- what occur everyday would you fear? e.g if waking up is not a norm, will you fear to wake up? if eating through the mouth is not a norm will you fear to eat?
Before the operation, I remember fearing... before I went to australia alone... I remember fearing... These two moments of my life make me finally understand what is it that I'm looking for... like everyone I fear before trying and holding on to someone make this fear less visible. But when there is no one to hold on to you, you fear that you will drop down and die? I find that in fact thats not the case which one fear it will be, rather there is nothing in front that needs to be afraid. I fear that the moment I woke up from my operation, I fear to be alone feeling the pain, been miserable, there will be no one to comfort you, etc. So I gave myself a test, that is try to feel the people around me, be it the nurse, the doctor, etc they are people who care. And, surprisingly, I don't really feel pain nor miserable but rather happy. If you are afraid of injection, try shifting your fear of pain and surprisingly your body reacts to nothing.
Hmm..... what am i trying to talk about? actually after so long I also have no idea.. just some random thoughts that I feel like blogging... IGNORE IT... now this blog don't make any sense after re-reading... but since I have talk so much rubbish might as well don't delete it lah.
1st discovery:
FEAR: that which causes a feeling of being afraid; that of which a person is afraid
That is what I feel like blogging... everyone fear for something but if the things is normal- what occur everyday would you fear? e.g if waking up is not a norm, will you fear to wake up? if eating through the mouth is not a norm will you fear to eat?
Before the operation, I remember fearing... before I went to australia alone... I remember fearing... These two moments of my life make me finally understand what is it that I'm looking for... like everyone I fear before trying and holding on to someone make this fear less visible. But when there is no one to hold on to you, you fear that you will drop down and die? I find that in fact thats not the case which one fear it will be, rather there is nothing in front that needs to be afraid. I fear that the moment I woke up from my operation, I fear to be alone feeling the pain, been miserable, there will be no one to comfort you, etc. So I gave myself a test, that is try to feel the people around me, be it the nurse, the doctor, etc they are people who care. And, surprisingly, I don't really feel pain nor miserable but rather happy. If you are afraid of injection, try shifting your fear of pain and surprisingly your body reacts to nothing.
Hmm..... what am i trying to talk about? actually after so long I also have no idea.. just some random thoughts that I feel like blogging... IGNORE IT... now this blog don't make any sense after re-reading... but since I have talk so much rubbish might as well don't delete it lah.
posted by sheepz @ 7:07 PM
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